mathmission
11-14-2005, 01:37 PM
I was tagged with the chance to write ten things that no one knows about me. Thought that I would throw it here
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Let me think of ten things you do not know of me, and I shall tell them to you:
1) Of all the sounds in the world, only three seem to really fit my fancy. The first, of course, would be the sound of silence. There is a lot to say for the lack of all sound, and moreso, what sounds you make youself, be it physical, or mental, in said silence. The second sound is that of water. Be it ran, or waterfall, it is one of my favorites. The last sound that I love, is that of the Emergency Sirens that blair once a month.
2) I keep more history than people really know. All AIM conversations are recorded, and I have every note that I ever recieved from past girlfriends (including ones that I had written one in particular, as they were retuned to me.) I have a notebook entitled Mathmission. Within these set of notebooks are conversations between myself and Bennett. If anyone wanted to know anything about who I was, or the thoughts that I was thinking between the years of 1997, and 2002, you would be able to find it there. Course, there's no way I'm letting you look at them.
3) My father has not called me by name for the past 5 years. It certainly doesn't bother me, just a simple fact.
4) I plan to keep my future plans as secret as possible. This, I believe, keeps any form of bias out of my decision. The only person that will know what my plans are before anyone else, will be bRAN, and then family.
5) Of all my relationships (both with title, and without) there is only one that I feel I have not gotten over.
6) Back in Kansas City, in what was once my room, there are three words on the wall. They are located just above where my bed used to be. These words area "Brooks was here." Likewise, above my brother's bed, in his room in Kansas City, three words as also written. These words are "So was Red."
7) I really dislike people that must have schedules in their lives. I find it impossible to opperate on a set schedule all the time. That is not to say that I will hate having a M-F job. That is not to say that I had standard work hours. I think that when a person cannot stand simple plan changes, they are not being fair this thing called life. Things change, that's what happens in all our lives. Adaptation is the key to survival. One day, I might be working here, the next, I might be living in California (sudders) or the northeast. Who knows? I like to make plans for dinner, but if they change, and I eat crappy ramen here, that is entirely fine. I found that I have become a much happier person. I believe this all started when I decided not to have dinner at the same time each day, in the same corner, at the same table, eating the same food. This is not to say that the people were driving me nuts at all. No, this is much grander than that. A change certainly broke the rut I had been for the past several years. Eat dinner an hour later, see what happens.
8) I enjoy to watch drama, and enjoy hearing about drama. However, I severely dispise drama in my life. Simplicity is the key to most situations. Emotion is a wonderful thing; however, when you let it dictate your life, then you are living in chaos. That might be fine for me, but I like to have some control over things. This does not go against my theme of free living. It does state that I need some sort of solid base in my life, and I think that drama is an element that disrupts said stability.
9) Though this is stupid, and I know its rediculous, I do feel bad for displaying books on my bookshelf that I have not yet read.
10) I shall be honest with this one, as it does involve many people that I know. This is on the topic of drinking. Setting all history aside, he is what I say to drinking. I dislike drinking to the extent that most my friends take it to. I personally feel that several of my friends use drinking as an escape; an escape that is certainly not helping. Rarely do I actually have a beer, and when I do, it is never more than one. I find it amazingly funny when my friends try to get me to go out and have 'a lot' of alcohol. I have no problem telling them no, however I have experienced several times when me telling someone no was 'not an acceptable answer.' I will say this now, for those that are reading. Rather, I shall warn you, as I feel no problem saying that. If anyone ever asks me if I want something to drink after I have said no, I will be angry with you. If I walked up to any of my girl friends, and asked for sex, and they said no, and I asked again, in all seriousness, what would you expect. And before you think that I am making a poor example, stop, they are on the same level. No, in any sense of the word, means simply that. I hold repsect for friends that drink. There is no reason for me not to. My friends all make the decisions that they want. And likewise. This is certainly not a call-out to anyone. I don't care to have a discussion about drinking, nor do I care to hear about my beliefs. Now, bringing in past history, I know what its like to see people use alcohol (and even drugs) to escape life. With that, I leave with this quote: "Look life in the face, always look life in the face--and to always know what it is. At last, to know, to love it, and know what it is, and then--put it away."
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Let me think of ten things you do not know of me, and I shall tell them to you:
1) Of all the sounds in the world, only three seem to really fit my fancy. The first, of course, would be the sound of silence. There is a lot to say for the lack of all sound, and moreso, what sounds you make youself, be it physical, or mental, in said silence. The second sound is that of water. Be it ran, or waterfall, it is one of my favorites. The last sound that I love, is that of the Emergency Sirens that blair once a month.
2) I keep more history than people really know. All AIM conversations are recorded, and I have every note that I ever recieved from past girlfriends (including ones that I had written one in particular, as they were retuned to me.) I have a notebook entitled Mathmission. Within these set of notebooks are conversations between myself and Bennett. If anyone wanted to know anything about who I was, or the thoughts that I was thinking between the years of 1997, and 2002, you would be able to find it there. Course, there's no way I'm letting you look at them.
3) My father has not called me by name for the past 5 years. It certainly doesn't bother me, just a simple fact.
4) I plan to keep my future plans as secret as possible. This, I believe, keeps any form of bias out of my decision. The only person that will know what my plans are before anyone else, will be bRAN, and then family.
5) Of all my relationships (both with title, and without) there is only one that I feel I have not gotten over.
6) Back in Kansas City, in what was once my room, there are three words on the wall. They are located just above where my bed used to be. These words area "Brooks was here." Likewise, above my brother's bed, in his room in Kansas City, three words as also written. These words are "So was Red."
7) I really dislike people that must have schedules in their lives. I find it impossible to opperate on a set schedule all the time. That is not to say that I will hate having a M-F job. That is not to say that I had standard work hours. I think that when a person cannot stand simple plan changes, they are not being fair this thing called life. Things change, that's what happens in all our lives. Adaptation is the key to survival. One day, I might be working here, the next, I might be living in California (sudders) or the northeast. Who knows? I like to make plans for dinner, but if they change, and I eat crappy ramen here, that is entirely fine. I found that I have become a much happier person. I believe this all started when I decided not to have dinner at the same time each day, in the same corner, at the same table, eating the same food. This is not to say that the people were driving me nuts at all. No, this is much grander than that. A change certainly broke the rut I had been for the past several years. Eat dinner an hour later, see what happens.
8) I enjoy to watch drama, and enjoy hearing about drama. However, I severely dispise drama in my life. Simplicity is the key to most situations. Emotion is a wonderful thing; however, when you let it dictate your life, then you are living in chaos. That might be fine for me, but I like to have some control over things. This does not go against my theme of free living. It does state that I need some sort of solid base in my life, and I think that drama is an element that disrupts said stability.
9) Though this is stupid, and I know its rediculous, I do feel bad for displaying books on my bookshelf that I have not yet read.
10) I shall be honest with this one, as it does involve many people that I know. This is on the topic of drinking. Setting all history aside, he is what I say to drinking. I dislike drinking to the extent that most my friends take it to. I personally feel that several of my friends use drinking as an escape; an escape that is certainly not helping. Rarely do I actually have a beer, and when I do, it is never more than one. I find it amazingly funny when my friends try to get me to go out and have 'a lot' of alcohol. I have no problem telling them no, however I have experienced several times when me telling someone no was 'not an acceptable answer.' I will say this now, for those that are reading. Rather, I shall warn you, as I feel no problem saying that. If anyone ever asks me if I want something to drink after I have said no, I will be angry with you. If I walked up to any of my girl friends, and asked for sex, and they said no, and I asked again, in all seriousness, what would you expect. And before you think that I am making a poor example, stop, they are on the same level. No, in any sense of the word, means simply that. I hold repsect for friends that drink. There is no reason for me not to. My friends all make the decisions that they want. And likewise. This is certainly not a call-out to anyone. I don't care to have a discussion about drinking, nor do I care to hear about my beliefs. Now, bringing in past history, I know what its like to see people use alcohol (and even drugs) to escape life. With that, I leave with this quote: "Look life in the face, always look life in the face--and to always know what it is. At last, to know, to love it, and know what it is, and then--put it away."